1.I confess that a most fantastic friend got a court order today and I simultaneously cried and did a small, slow happy dance. It’s about FREAKING TIME this woman got to this stage. Seriously, life is so not fair in this arena of adoption.
2. I confess I had a SUCKY, SUCKY night and I am walking around like something the cat dragged in, then dragged out, left on the road to be driven over a few times and decomposed for a few days. Too graphic? Well, it’s how I feel.
3. I confess that I was surprised at the depth of my PTSD meltdown last night, how long it lasted, and the symptoms I got to relive that I haven’t seen for a long while.
4. I confess it was so bad that Hoty stayed home from work today. That might also be because he’s exhausted from holding me while I was alternating between weeping, rage, freezing and shaking.
5. I confess that my children are watching a lot of TV today.
6. I confess that my Daddy is amazing and is taking me to see improv theater tonight in order to get me laughing. Here’s hoping I can stay awake.
7. I confess that I napped this morning and I’m hoping to nap this afternoon. Or at least lie on the couch while supposedly watching crap TV.
8. I confess that I am going to not think about my future career options until after a big meeting next week, which will most likely be a factor in me deciding the directions I go.
9. I confess that I’m dreaming of getting a dog. A small sized staffy terrier to be precise.
10. I confess that I wish I could be stronger and more independent.
Happy Weekend, lovely people! We have a very quiet weekend, and I’m hoping it stays peaceful, restful, and full of good food and lovely friends.
February 10, 2012 at 11:09 pm |
WHOO FREAKING HOO to #1!!!
and BALLS to the next few. Hope you are having some tea & cookies right now.
February 11, 2012 at 4:27 am |
Tov, I love you, like oodles and squoodles and squishes and bunches.
February 11, 2012 at 7:52 am |
You ARE strong and independent. A tough night does not change that.
Love staffys, we used to work with someone who bred them. They are hilarious and adorable.
And YAY!!!!!!!! to the court order! Such wonderful news!
February 12, 2012 at 7:22 am |
Yay!!! For court orders!!! Excitement!!! Clapping!
And, I agree with Sarah, you are strong and independent. You’ve done a lot and been through a lot and you still keep planning and growing and moving forward. That’s what strong people do.